These last several years have seen many changes. It seems my family grew apart. We welcomed a new baby and wept over the death of some loved ones. Both my brothers moved out and entered relationships with women they plan on marrying. Eventually. *sticks tongue out* I graduated from nursing school, moved out, and started working as a nurse. Talk about a culture shock for a girl who had previously only been away from her family for five days in her life and had no idea what she was capable of doing on her own. (Though I was never really alone).
I've experienced a lot of firsts such as roller coasters, getting a car, driving on roads that have more than two lanes, climbing up a wall which wasn't nearly as terrifying as going down it, eating things (like lobster, pickled okra, etc), buying a new computer (which thankfully was prepped by Tyler), new games, decorating my own apartment.....
...and then when I was least expecting it (technically I was trying to avoid it indefinitely if not forever) I entered a relationship with a man whom I shall be spending the rest of my life with after we marry in May. Getting ready for a wedding creates a whole new list of first time experiences that fortunately will remain once in a lifetime experiences. His family is almost a polar opposite of mine but very loving and weird (mostly it's the males who are weird). And his family is expanding further cause there's gonna be a baby this year, too!
Now thinking on all this I've realized how life can be a bit scary but also how wonderful and loving is our God. (And patient, too, to put up with stubborn creatures like me). When I think back on these happenings I'm kinda shocked at how far I've come, how much I've grown, and what there still is to face. But really thinking about marriage (all Tyler's fault) and babies (all Dustin and Angela's fault) I realize there are a LOT of new responsibilities. (*wink*) It seems overwhelming a bit cause I'm about to share my life with some weird man and I have never even had to share a room with someone else (the benefit of being the only girl).
Tyler is always reminding me about the importance of words in my life. Words are powerful. John 1 :14 I listen to music nearly all the time and the real point of this blog (my next goal is to write a SHORT blog post) is to share a song that comforts me. I am also going to link some scripture with the lyrics. Hopefully that works out. The song is You're My Little Girl by Go Fish. (I LOVE that name). Lyrics and scripture are as follows and God bless ya:
The ones you love they let you down
And I want you to know that I�m sorry
The choices that they made were wrong Proverbs 1:7
You were caught in the middle and I�'m sorry
So when the anger and the pain
Get the best of you
I know it seems like you�re all alone Deuteronomy 31:8
But I am feeling it too
Chorus
'Cuz you're my little girl
You�re the one that I created Jeremiah 1: 5
No one in this world could ever be like you
When you're cryin' in the night Psalm 18: 6
All you need to do is call me
I�ll be there for you
'Cuz you�re my little girl
When you're lookin in the mirror
I hope you're likin' what you see
Because no matter what you're feelin'
You're perfect to me
Because I see you as a child John 1:12-13
Blameless in my sight 2 Corinthians 5:17
Just spend some time with me
And I�ll make everything alright
Chorus
Bridge
I know you don't deserve what you've been through
I know it doesn't seem fair
I know that there are times you think you're alone
But you've got to know that I will be there, be there
Friday, February 27, 2009
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Still a N00b
Second post.....I've clicked on random tabs....and well....at least I know how to post. Sad thing is I should be sleeping now. The last two nights at work certainly challenged me as a nurse and as person. I left late both nights and was so tired that most of the sleeping I did today was in the car. Have you ever been so worn out and tired that you cannot sleep? That's why I started checking out this blog thing.
Anyhow, far as goings on....I spent some time in Florida and managed to get much accomplished with the help of Tyler and his mom. We know who is going to do the cake and have a basic idea on how most of the decorating will be done for the wedding and reception. My trunk is still full of the flowers we are going to use for the bouquets for the bridesmaids and some other decorating. I have NO CLUE what sort of bouquet I want to carry. We still need a photographer. Still need a third bridesmaid. I kinda feel pushed to ask someone other than my two besties who don't think they can make it and yet I feel it awkward to ask anyone else at this point. We ordered our rings. They are epically cool. I think it's neat that Tyler and I have the same ring size though his hands are bigger with longer, skinny fingers than my short, chubby fingers. It's weird because for every one thing we get done there seems to be a dozen more things to figure out. I will admit that the more we get accomplished the more at ease I feel.
Then after I came home and worked for a couple of days Tyler and my grandparents came to spend the weekend with me. This was exciting because I have never really hosted anything at home. I never had any friends over or slumber parties or anything growing up so I had no clue what to do! Angela (Tyler's sister-in-law) gave me some quite helpful advice about what to do and what to serve. Tyler was an amazing help when he was here, too. He even did the dishes and took out the trash without asking! He also cooked these amazingly juicy hamburgers that everyone loved. We all went to Savannah for a day just to check out the visitor's center and walk the Riverfront. It was beautiful and much fun as we were able to walk aboard a modernized sail boat. Tyler and I went to an amazing concert. We saw George Winston, my fave pianist, play the piano in a way I have never seen. He actually reached into the piano and played directly on the strings at several points!! He also played the guitar and harmonica. A very talented musician and we're using his music during the wedding. Also a major accomplishment was that my Gramma brought her address book so that Tyler and I could spend a whole day working on invitations. I will admit that I was fairly lazy and let Tyler do most of the work. For being such a hard worker I let him pour the glitter in the envelops. *smiles*
All in all I have to say that I feel like we're making progress. I do not feel nearly as overwhelmed about the actual wedding. I think I am blessed to have so many people in Tyler's family that are willing to help. I think I am freaking out a little bit about the fact that I will be married. That means Tyler will have to put up with me until we die. Or are raptured. Whatever comes first. Just the idea of being a wife is starting to sink in a bit. That is the thing I dislike about chick flicks. The gal gets a guy and they marry at which point life is amazing and all problems seem to be solved. But if you survive the ceremony what happens next??? The wedding for better or worse is one day. Marriage is a life time. Most of my friends never married and I know I don't want to mimic most of the marriages in my family. How does one even be a good wife let alone a Godly wife? I've been praying on this and plan to keep praying on this.
Anyhow.....I still have a bajillion bean's worth of questions and need a nap. So God bless and catch ya on the flip side.
Anyhow, far as goings on....I spent some time in Florida and managed to get much accomplished with the help of Tyler and his mom. We know who is going to do the cake and have a basic idea on how most of the decorating will be done for the wedding and reception. My trunk is still full of the flowers we are going to use for the bouquets for the bridesmaids and some other decorating. I have NO CLUE what sort of bouquet I want to carry. We still need a photographer. Still need a third bridesmaid. I kinda feel pushed to ask someone other than my two besties who don't think they can make it and yet I feel it awkward to ask anyone else at this point. We ordered our rings. They are epically cool. I think it's neat that Tyler and I have the same ring size though his hands are bigger with longer, skinny fingers than my short, chubby fingers. It's weird because for every one thing we get done there seems to be a dozen more things to figure out. I will admit that the more we get accomplished the more at ease I feel.
Then after I came home and worked for a couple of days Tyler and my grandparents came to spend the weekend with me. This was exciting because I have never really hosted anything at home. I never had any friends over or slumber parties or anything growing up so I had no clue what to do! Angela (Tyler's sister-in-law) gave me some quite helpful advice about what to do and what to serve. Tyler was an amazing help when he was here, too. He even did the dishes and took out the trash without asking! He also cooked these amazingly juicy hamburgers that everyone loved. We all went to Savannah for a day just to check out the visitor's center and walk the Riverfront. It was beautiful and much fun as we were able to walk aboard a modernized sail boat. Tyler and I went to an amazing concert. We saw George Winston, my fave pianist, play the piano in a way I have never seen. He actually reached into the piano and played directly on the strings at several points!! He also played the guitar and harmonica. A very talented musician and we're using his music during the wedding. Also a major accomplishment was that my Gramma brought her address book so that Tyler and I could spend a whole day working on invitations. I will admit that I was fairly lazy and let Tyler do most of the work. For being such a hard worker I let him pour the glitter in the envelops. *smiles*
All in all I have to say that I feel like we're making progress. I do not feel nearly as overwhelmed about the actual wedding. I think I am blessed to have so many people in Tyler's family that are willing to help. I think I am freaking out a little bit about the fact that I will be married. That means Tyler will have to put up with me until we die. Or are raptured. Whatever comes first. Just the idea of being a wife is starting to sink in a bit. That is the thing I dislike about chick flicks. The gal gets a guy and they marry at which point life is amazing and all problems seem to be solved. But if you survive the ceremony what happens next??? The wedding for better or worse is one day. Marriage is a life time. Most of my friends never married and I know I don't want to mimic most of the marriages in my family. How does one even be a good wife let alone a Godly wife? I've been praying on this and plan to keep praying on this.
Anyhow.....I still have a bajillion bean's worth of questions and need a nap. So God bless and catch ya on the flip side.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
N00b
My first blog. Who woulda thunk it? If you couldn't tell I've not written a blog (unless you count the thingie on my hasn't-been-checked-in-I-dunno-how-long myspace account) before...so this shall be rather blah until I can figure things out...which could be a while...
Why am I doing this? Per suggestion of my future mom-in-law! She sent me the link to my future sister-in-law's blog (which has a pretty set up which you can see for yourself). The suggestion was that this would be a neat way to keep up to date on what is going on with loved ones' lives and to record all the pre-wedding happenings....(I suppose I shall introduce myself and get into that)...so that I shall have a nice little log of all my thoughts. And I have had OODLES to think about!
I suppose there is a place that I could tell you (whomever you are.....I'm not really sure who is supposed to OR who will read this thing) details about myself. BUT until I figure out where that is I shall just cover the basics here. *smiles*
Firstly, I'm a Christian who has a lot to learn and is looking forward to a life time of learning. Mayhap I shall share my testimony on here at some point. I am hoping (and praying) to become brave enough to share my love for such an amazing Saviour on a mission trip someday.
Secondly, I'm a nurse. I work nightshift on a telemetry unit which means most of the patients I care for have cardiac issues. Nightshift means I'm prolly asleep when you're up and I'm pale from the lack of solar exposure. (Not to mention that driving during the day sucks beans cause there are actually other people on the road and GLARE! Plus side is stores other than Wal-mart are actually OPEN). This is another area in which I am looking forward to a lifetime of learning. Being a nurse has developed a bit of a germophobic side to my personality. I LOVE GermX. I have tripled the supply of GermX I carry with me since I started dating my fiance. I may have to buy stock in the company.
Thirdly, I love my family and I am going to be starting a new family with a wonderful man! Yup, if you hadn't figured it out yet........I'm getting married this year! On May 8th! To a Tyler Ryan! ♥♥♥ Yes, I'm going to be learning for a lifetime in this area, too! But what a blessing! I am so excited and nervous and bajillions of beans worth of other feelings. And I have never had to make so many decisions or answer so many questions since I took my nursing boards! Actually.....the NCLEX didn't have nearly the amount of questions on it that I had to answer when I bought my wedding dress. I have never owned such a beautiful or expensive dress, either. And I did not realize that wedding cake was so expensive either! And as a nurse I KNOW what will happen to that cake after about an hour! Good gravy beans! But well, in the end, I am only going to do this wedding thing ONCE and I'm blessed to share such a happy event with Tyler and other loved ones. But seriously, this is only going to happen once. *grins* I'll have to tell you all about my Tyler and how he convinced me to be his girlfriend. (It's really cooler than frigid arctic beans that I'm going to be his wife).
Other basic information includes a shorter than average attention span, lack of grace (as demonstrated by my inability to walk without taking a trip), fondess for expressing myself in terms of beans, a tendency to ramble when I don't know what else to say, a quirky sense of humour, generalized weirdness, and affinities for tea, Tinkerbell, glitter, hand sanitizer, books, and duct tape.
And that's about it. God bless til the next time!
Why am I doing this? Per suggestion of my future mom-in-law! She sent me the link to my future sister-in-law's blog (which has a pretty set up which you can see for yourself). The suggestion was that this would be a neat way to keep up to date on what is going on with loved ones' lives and to record all the pre-wedding happenings....(I suppose I shall introduce myself and get into that)...so that I shall have a nice little log of all my thoughts. And I have had OODLES to think about!
I suppose there is a place that I could tell you (whomever you are.....I'm not really sure who is supposed to OR who will read this thing) details about myself. BUT until I figure out where that is I shall just cover the basics here. *smiles*
Firstly, I'm a Christian who has a lot to learn and is looking forward to a life time of learning. Mayhap I shall share my testimony on here at some point. I am hoping (and praying) to become brave enough to share my love for such an amazing Saviour on a mission trip someday.
Secondly, I'm a nurse. I work nightshift on a telemetry unit which means most of the patients I care for have cardiac issues. Nightshift means I'm prolly asleep when you're up and I'm pale from the lack of solar exposure. (Not to mention that driving during the day sucks beans cause there are actually other people on the road and GLARE! Plus side is stores other than Wal-mart are actually OPEN). This is another area in which I am looking forward to a lifetime of learning. Being a nurse has developed a bit of a germophobic side to my personality. I LOVE GermX. I have tripled the supply of GermX I carry with me since I started dating my fiance. I may have to buy stock in the company.
Thirdly, I love my family and I am going to be starting a new family with a wonderful man! Yup, if you hadn't figured it out yet........I'm getting married this year! On May 8th! To a Tyler Ryan! ♥♥♥ Yes, I'm going to be learning for a lifetime in this area, too! But what a blessing! I am so excited and nervous and bajillions of beans worth of other feelings. And I have never had to make so many decisions or answer so many questions since I took my nursing boards! Actually.....the NCLEX didn't have nearly the amount of questions on it that I had to answer when I bought my wedding dress. I have never owned such a beautiful or expensive dress, either. And I did not realize that wedding cake was so expensive either! And as a nurse I KNOW what will happen to that cake after about an hour! Good gravy beans! But well, in the end, I am only going to do this wedding thing ONCE and I'm blessed to share such a happy event with Tyler and other loved ones. But seriously, this is only going to happen once. *grins* I'll have to tell you all about my Tyler and how he convinced me to be his girlfriend. (It's really cooler than frigid arctic beans that I'm going to be his wife).
Other basic information includes a shorter than average attention span, lack of grace (as demonstrated by my inability to walk without taking a trip), fondess for expressing myself in terms of beans, a tendency to ramble when I don't know what else to say, a quirky sense of humour, generalized weirdness, and affinities for tea, Tinkerbell, glitter, hand sanitizer, books, and duct tape.
And that's about it. God bless til the next time!
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